hey.. lifes funny.. haha.. in giving frens advise.. pple shld take their own advice.. i realised..  it shldn't be how sad i am.. but how happy i was.. the past few months was great..hey.. so.. forget the sadness.. rmb the joys.. and move on.. life is good.. life is great.. life is beautiful! =)

Hey if your mess'n with the sacred world
It's a never ending test
I don't know where to begin
And I feel I'm at an end
I don't wanna live life
Doing petty nonsense
It's hard to sleep at night
With a guilty conscience
You know It's really a mess
Now I feel blessed
When 20 Minutes from now
It'll all turn to stress I'm 27 years,
I'm in Brownsville, dears I'm stuck with all the blood, the sweat and the tears yeah yeah baby It's on, A mother sheds tears at the same time a baby is born
On the other side of town a life is lost A young thug was knocked off and the heat was tossed damn Life is real, it's so trite
But don't stop now
Live your life I know it's hell for the rough
But don't talk down on your man,
Unless your helping him out It's yours
So what would you do if you wake tomorrow there's no more sorrow, your dreams came true
So knock on wood and cross your fingers
Now count your blessings
It might be you
What would you do if you wake tomorrow and all your gray skies have now turned blue
How many days do you think you're given
So get on livin , it's up to you
Life is good Life is great Life is unbelievable Life is hard, life is cruel Life is so beautiful

hiaz.. damn sian.. giving up soon... =(

haiz.. damn f***ed up today.. in a serious blue funk la... 1st.. i'm so bloody drained from y'day's aftoon pe and judo training.. muscles aching and stuff.. so every step i take hurts.. 2nd.. i am sorta sick.. got an ulcer in my edge of my throat and on my tongue.. thus causing pain when i drink water or eat.. haiz.. stomachs not too good either.. haiz... anyway... today.. it orcurred to me tt i actually did very very very badly for my mid yrs..  comparative to my claz pple la.. haiz.. further more.. today is like my longest day.. and my brain died on my aft my 1st break.. haiz.. causing totally 0 infomation gain.. haiz.. summore my GPF is due tomorrow.. and there is like nothing done la.. haiz... the comp wif the minutes i'm supposed to type is down la... so i have to re-type everything again! haiz.. i juz feel like giving up on everything now... juz waiting for 1 more failure til i really gif up.. haiz.. and o ya.. the bus broke down on my way home la.. so.. how lucky am i..haiz... BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE BLUE.. haiz...

ok.. done for now.. pretty proud of my blog.. pic matches the song rite? haha.. love it man.. woo hoo.. anyway.. today quite a sian day.. didn't have judo coz they went for comp.. haiz... i think i pon too much liao... haiz..guilty.. o well.. gotta rush to go bath and do my math file.. ciao..

hey.. hows the pic? chio rite? tts kristin kreuk in case u cannot tell.. anyway.. trying to give dis blog a make over..

so.. todays like kinda sian la.. got back mt gp exam ans la.. and i like got a bloody 44/100.. so i like bloody failed by like i bloody mark la.. grrr!.. haiz.. anyway..ended at 12.40 wif nothing to do.. shannon has her debate.. poor ger.. and i kinda hanged ard sch until 1.30 b4 going home.. haiz.. lifes kinda sian right now.. ain't as exciting and fun filed as 4k life.. haha.. really miss those days... used to luff from 8 to 3or 4 straight.. haiz.. miss those days.. esp aft my 4k chalet.. was like so damn fun la.. was like those days again la.. i'll nv forget them man...haha.. actually starting to think tt maybe my life in mf wasn't all that bad.. met some great frens.. had a wonderful sec 3 and 4 life.. and got to meet my someone there.. hehe.. =) sometimes juz wished i could have met u earlier.. anyway.. as i was saying.. and i got to have a great chem teacher.. i still think chem being my best sub is kinda because of my foundation la... anyway.. i kinda dun mind if i actually went to sr.. coz like ray and andri and pple tt i miss are there.. summore they have mrs surash.. bloody good chem teacher.. o well.. haha.. i'm here and i ain't regretting it tt much too.. met some great pple.. got closer to some pple i haven't tok to in a long time and i'm here wif my someone.. hehe.. o well.. shall stop this mass of jumbled uped thoughts..
i love the times we spent tog.. can't wait for more..

hey.. so yesterday's like so shitty la.. got back my papers for chem bio and math.. chem wasn't too bad la.. although i think i could have and should have gotten better la.. like 1 mark short of a bloody b la.. haiz.. sob sob.. anyway..lets talk bout the bad ones.. bio i flunked la.. i got ao.. bloody hell.. 2.5 more marks can pass liao.. haiz.. summore.. maths! HAHA.. f*** la.. soo shitty.. i got 3.5/70! my lowest every la.. i like got a1 for a and e maths lor.. haiz.. so utterly dissapointing... haiz.. anyway.. i definatily need maths tuition la.. haiz.. hope tt helps me.. feel like getting back mrs ong.. like last time nv do her hw still can get a a1 lor.. haiz.. anyway.. tmr got judo.. so shit la.. i nv go for so long.. feel so bloody guilty la.. haiz.. anyway.. shannon is like so much more poor thing la.. she's like stuck in sch until so late wif debate la.. tts like soo poor thing lor.. well hope she shows her hidden talent.. hehe.. shes like one of the few things tt like cheers me up dis few days la.. haiz.. summore monday i was in such a holiday mood.. den now.. shit la.. tuesday i was like soooo super duper bumbed out la.. on a brighter note.. last nite had a really wierd dream.. so many pple i knew were in it plus some supermodel i saw on tv on tues nite... haha.. wierd.. haha.. o well.. tts my screwwyy looyy life..
you have been my bright light at the end of the tunnel for so long.. all i wish is to treasure you more and more.. i want to be there for u..

ahhh... the taste of freedom.. exams ended yesterday.. sooo dumb.. i'm sooo gonna fail everything... haiz.. o well...anyway.. shall try to enjoy myself until next tues.. den all the papers coming back.. haiz.. so sian... hope i can at least get a c for my chem.. kinda counting on it.. haiz.. anyway... yesterday went to celebrate by watching a movie wif suk,cheryl,dan and leon... went to watch some dumb jap horror flick seance.. so dumb.. soooo wasted my 6.50... but the other show arcia is even more dumb.. o well... they went to watch spiderman aft tt but i went home.. partially coz i wanted to watch it wif shannon and coz i wanted to go home to slp... night b4 didn't get a gd nites slp... o well... shall update later tonight.. right now.. time to slackkk..