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Monday, July 25, 2005
hey hey.. haven't blogged for a while.. can hardly find time anymore.. been studying in sch aft sch for the past few days... stress.. prelims in 47 days.. gulps... really dunno how i'm gonna do it.. but i'll do my best... now i decided i shld aim to do well enough to go uni of melbourn or something... i really really wanna do vet...
anyways... stress a side.. i've finally got something to cheer me up... a mp3!!! ZEN NEEON!!.. haha.. i really love it sia.. haha...its my new study companion.... last night only got 3 hours sleep.. but somehow i feel tired but not as tired as i thought... isn't tt hard to keep my eyes open... but the moment i close it i'll fall into slumber... anyway... i gotta go eat dinner now... didn't know reading the bible was so fun.. haha 7:11 PM Friday, July 08, 2005
yay... our judo girls got bronze! so happy... so excited... YAY! they really fought for it... the guys though didn't get anything... fought hard... but o well... all did nanyang proud....
anyways.... right now i'm like feeling so craped up... really got too much stocked up depression emotions packed up inside me... i really feel like exploding.. haiz... depressed about my marks.. depressed wif the utter lack of an wei-ness... haiz... plus somehow i feel rejected by some people sometimes... plus i got no idea what my dream is... i got no idea if the path i'm heading down is the right one for me..... to many things too worry about.. and this is merely the tip of the ice berg... i really cant take it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz... and no one will ever notice my melancholy... unless of coz...they read this... maybe its because of my ever plastic smile.. grin... maybe i'm just like my father.. maybe i have a fear of showing my true emotions... i don't know.. but no matter how much i want to display my sadness i can't.. people expect me to always be happy... haiz.. and sometimes tt makes me even sader... haiz.. i'm tired... tired of everything.... haiz.... can't take it anymore... anyway... i just feel like saying.. my mum rocks! haha... totally unrelated but i think its ture... 9:45 PM Thursday, July 07, 2005
haiz.... got back all my a level subjects today.... and all of em were aos.. cant believe it... i'm soooooooooo depressed... ok la.. i sorta expected something like tt when i did the paper la.. but still.. i'm sad... arrrhhh! sometimes i just want to scream out.. arrhhhh!!! haiz... anyway.... this is my goal la for A's la.. seems so near now...
Chem-A Bio-A Maths-A GP-B3 haha.. i said goal... didn't say i'll get it... haha.. i mean who doesn't aim high? haha... but i got chem- ao(41) bio-ao(42) maths-ao(42) gp-?? haha.. owell... i got an extra letter.. haha.. haiz... so sad.... but yet i'm still joking... haiz.. tts depressing anyway... i think i really can get a for chem... but i plan to redo every single tutorial.. i know i can do it! yes! jia you! seems like i'll be the only one whose gonna be cheering myself up as usual.. poor old lonely me... plan to redo all tutorals for maths too... i think tts the best way lor... its only bio that i don't know how to study... i mean.. i've tried to memorise the book word for word and it doesn't work.. i tried doing tys and learning the ans and it doesn't work.. i've tried all the methods i know from sec sch and it doesn't work.. i am really at a lost lor.. ARRRH!!!!.. i really want to juz tear apart all my notes and burn them... hellpppppp... haiz... and like usual.. i.. shall figure out a way by my.. self.... haiz... poor old lonely me... haiz... such a funked-up mood... did worse than last yrs midyrs.... o well.. guess i can't keep looking back at the past... its only forward from here.. so this is my study schedule from now on starting from next wk... CHEM- redo phy chem tutorials... (week 3-5) - redo inorg chem tutorials... ( week 6) - redo org chem tutorials.... (week 7-8) - memorise, learn and do tutorials for environ chem (week 9) - do at least 3 other schs prelim papers.... ( week 10) BIO -learn and redo detailed notes for yr 1 topics ( week 3-5) -learn and redo detailed notes for yr 2 topics ( week 6-7) -learn and redo detailed notes for option topics ( week 8-9) - do at leasr 3 other sch prelim papers ( week 10) MATHS -do partial fract, binomal expan, inequal, APGP, Math Induc, functions,P&C, trigo, 3d trigo all prelim papers qsts (week 3-5) - do vectors, differenciation, maclaurins, curve sketching, intregration, DE, complex no.... (week 6-7) - do stats (week 8) - do tys and prelim papers at least 5 (week 9-10) man.. i really hope this jacks ups my grades..... 9:00 PM Monday, July 04, 2005
yawn... exams ended on thurs... i'm a free man for a while... so bored... i'm tired... anyway.. i screwed up my exam... totally... gonna be so sad.... haiz... o well... dun feel like talking about it until results are out...
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