wierd

2007-02-21T18:14:00.000+08:00

Ok. I'm done with this blog. Moved it to www.insert-cool-url-here.blogspot.com . The other is not completely done yet but I won't be blogging here any longer.

2007-01-07T12:08:00.000+08:00

DUMB DUMB
Just watched a docmentary on Nat Geo about whale-ing. Really sad documentary, which only examplifies how stupid people are. They killed(culled) off all the whales in a fishing area because they thought the whales were eating the fish they were fishing, unaware that the whales where food for the orcas( killer whales). This in turn caused the orcas to switch their diet, and eat the otters in the area. The otters were eating the sea urchin which were eating the kelp. Thus causing the kelp to be completely wiped out, effectively destroying the kelp forest that the fish larve live in. Eventually killing all thee fishes in the area and destroying the entire fishing indujsty. Just goes to show how ignorant, primative and short sighted people are. They think that all the problems can be solved by killing something. Arrhhh!! Simply irritating. Really seems like the earth is dying, being overexploited by people. Already the entire world's marine life is said to be EATEN up within 40 years, the current global warming situation is said to usher in the ice age within 50-60 years, most minerals, metals and oil is supposed to run ojut within 50 years, and so many ignorant people, and i mean IGNORANT not naive because they know it but they just chose to ignore it, just dismisses it as scaring techniques! They just use this as an excuse to allow themselves to do things the easy way without the guilt of themselves destroying the environment. I can just write down all the scary info bout the earth dying, heating up, corals bleaching and dying, blah blah blah, but I don't even have to. Its so obvious. Haven't you noticed the extremes lately? Like one moment it can be bloody hot and the next its raining non-stop? It rained the most it has in more than a hundred years, not only in Singapore but the rest of the world. It has also been the hottest in over 70 yrs and more in other places. Its not snowing in places that supposed to snow and snowing in places its supposed to. And people still choose to be ignorant! Oh well. Ultimately the choice is ours, every individual has to acknowledge the problem exists and just make small changes in our lives to do our small part. Nuff said.

2006-12-31T23:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR
Well, at least it'll be in bout an hour. Spending new year's eve at home watching a crappy Singapore countdown production. Makes me wonder, is Singapore's talent pool really that small that they have to use Gurmit Singh and Michelle Chia for every single hosted live event? National day, charity events, Singapore idol, the list goes on. Have the producers at Mediacorp ever heard of over exposure? Enough!

Anyway, ranting aside, should take this opportunity to make my new year's resolution.

1. I have to come to a final decision as to what to study in the future, whether to stay in Singapore to study or to go to Australia to study to be a vet. Surely a decision that would determine the course of my life. The most important decision in my life thus far. Sighs.

2. Gotta save more money, been spending a lot of money these recent months, clubbing, pubbing, buying presents, and most of all enjoying quality food. I'm way below my target amount now.

3. I have to catch all the up coming marvel movies! Spidey, daredevil, fantastic 4, blah blah.

4. Gotta read more quality books. Started really enjoying books recently, partially thanks to boredom in camp, but it really stired my interest in inspirational books..

5. Gotta speak better English and learn another language.

6. Think of more resolutions...

2006-12-29T15:26:00.000+08:00

DEC
So.. took off today again.. cos i'll have to be back in camp tmr.. this festive season's been sorta like a holiday for me... 4 days break 2 days in camp 1 day break followed by 1day in camp.. blah blah blah... goes on from pre xmas till next yr.. haha.. anyway.. been a boring month in camp.. barely any sweeps or stuff like that.. but been spending a lot of money and going out quite bit.. used up ALL of my this month pay and more! ouch.. bout half of may pay went to presents.. gotta tighten my belt a heck of a lot next month to recoup some losses.. anyway.. got quite a lot of new stuff... hand phone, wallet, bag, clothes.. yikes..

anyways.. been meaning to blog bout something meaningful lately.. but haven't seem to have the time.. well.. hope i can start soon... ciao for now.. needa go laze around more..

2006-11-19T10:49:00.000+08:00

Arrggghhh.. finally got my long deserved complete weekend! 1st time in 4 weeks! or was it 5.. hmmm.. can't really remember.. well, finally a weekend that i don't have to go back to camp! yay!!! So.. i went to club with wee liat, ben and pohboon.. went through 2 clubs before finally deciding on MOS..
bloody hell.. DXO is wierd.. i mean.. the crowd is really wierd.. don't really know how to describe it but... its just wierd.. nuff said..
anyway..MOS was quite fun.. except for the uber crowded hiphop room..worst than sardines.. kept being pushed back and forth... eeesshhh and the place was so bloody packed with NS guys!!! and mostly BMT noobs with their shaved heads.. so went to the disco room to escape from the crowd.. and man.. was that a time warp.. 1st of all the people there were mainly in their 20's or 30's.. than they were groving to tunes of james brown and bee gees.. but it was quite cool..
anyway.. met so many pple yesterday.. met charmain outside cube with her bro.. met devica at MOS while buying tix.. and met daniel in his utterly drunk and nonsensical state in the hip hop room..
anywho.. at least the music and booze there was good..

2006-11-12T20:47:00.000+08:00

Starting to wonder why I still have this blog up. Barely update it anyways.

Anyway, been so busy in camp lately with exercise flatsword and dispatch and sweeps. Eeeessshh. Need a break badly. Hopefully can take it on the coming Friday. Been losing my weekends to sweeps lately, ohh my precious weekends.

Keep wanting to write alot of stuff in this blog but seems that during the weekend I'm either out or if I'm at home I'm too tired to update. Rather just rott in front of the tele.

Someone save me. I WANT A BREAK!

2006-10-01T17:07:00.000+08:00

wow.. really haven't blogged in a loonnng looonnng time.. ok.. so heres what happened recently... got a super long wkend thanks to my unit's celebration.. (no idea what they're celebrating).. so took this chance to unwind somewhat..
went to watch forbidden city yesterday.. caught the saturday matinee.. very nice show.. kit chan's a really good singer.. much better than the other singapore talent i've seen or heard la.. namely singapore idol.. anyway.. hosian leong was very funny.. though his comedic additions to the show was not very necessary, was simply hilarious.. plus the show had many sexual inuendos which was added very tastefully and subtely.. ( well it has to be coz there were sooo many kids ard) .. like there was this scene about the prince visiting a whore house and they had this dance where he happpened to take up different sexual positions as they threw him up and down?.. well i guess u had to watch it to really picture it la.. but that was hilarious...

anyway.. at night went to eski bar at holland v.. blooody cold place.. there was a freezer room which was like -4 degrees celcius.. couldn't stop shivering.. liked the tequilla sunrise.. and strawberrie margritta.. the graveyard sucked.. but maybe tt's because there was stout inside and i hate stout... bleah.. but the pple there keeps pushing you for drinks.. so much so tt it got a little irritating.. i mean b4 we even finished our drinks they kept asking if we'd like to order more.. but maybe cos we went there early.. and we were one of the few? so maybe it was like greater service? whatever.. anyway.. spend bout 60 bucks there and didn't get very high let alone drunk.. damn.. got more of a kick drinking tt 2 cups of wine and 5 cans of beer FOR FREE at the pioneer's bbq on tues! anyways.. nua-ed there unit 12 before returning home.. ran out of ash to drink and was getting kinda cold... o well.. actually we wanted to go wala wala.. but dammit.. when we went there.. they didn't allow us in coz we weren't 20 yet.. bloody hell.. wanted to watch the live band.. o well.. 1 more yr... dammit..

2006-08-09T15:56:00.000+08:00

really bored.. everydays been a bore recently.. waking up to do nothing but sai kang in camp.. yawn... have not been behind the wheel in over 2 wks!! i want to drive!!! arhh.. already feel lie i'm losing touch.. 2 wks till my ipod arrives.. can't wait.. at least have something to occupy my time.. gotta start reading something more intellectually stimulating before my brain completely self destructs.. miss jc days man..

2006-07-30T10:02:00.000+08:00

ok.. my driving course is done and i got my military liscense and i've gotta go back to unit tonight.. yawns... back to stay in life.. o well.. plan to bring my bio text book there to read for fun.. haha.. nerd..but i beats just reading non intellactually stimulating magazines and crappy boring books.. anyway.. gotta start packing in the afternoon.. yawns.. oh the dread of going back to stay in life... actually i wanted to buy somethings to make camp life better but with the lack of funds and lack of time to go looking for the items... i can't.. wanted to get IPOD, PSP, portable tv minifan, speakers and a new handphone.. gonna be so broke if i actually got all of the items... anyway.. also plan to stock up on some foods as well to relieve myself of potentially disgusting camp food.. eesssshhh..

anyway.. was reading the lifestyle today.. and it turns out tt pple who take flattering pics of themselves are called camera whores.. haha.. and seems like pple don't like to be called tt saynig tt their blog is merely to expand their social circle blah blah blah.. sounds to me like a mere excuse for over zealous self indulgent behaviour.. filling up webbies with tones of pictures of themselves.. i mean come on la.. there is only 360 different camera angles of a single person.. o well.. anyway.. feels like blogging and friendster is a platform to display these kinds of behavior..

anyway..the article also talked bout different kinds of blogs.. and i realised my blog doesn't fall within any of the catagories.. they shld create another catagory.. those who blog bout the nothing.. complete nothingness.. just like seinfield.. its all bout.. nothing..

2006-07-15T12:53:00.000+08:00

boredom boredom.. children of boredom.. blah... talking nonsense because i'm so freaking bored.. shall go back to playing halo trail... anyway.. its time for my 5 tonner course.. 1 more wk of staying out before going back to the life of saikang

2006-07-08T09:49:00.000+08:00

I am back! Got half a day off! And some other days next week tt I'm still not too sure off. Why you ask? I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!!! ON THE 1st SHOT!!!! 10 points!!! yea! Took a whole lotta luck actually, traffic conditions were good, no stupid bastard trying to overtake me or anything. A few close calls but nothing major. And now its finally over for now, no more staying in(for now), no more 1hour bus trip back and forth(for now) and a few days off to rest at home. How I wish this were actually a real driving liscence instead of just a SAF one. O WELL, just 7 thousand clicks away from a real one huh. SCREWED UP..

2006-06-25T12:28:00.000+08:00

WORLD CUP
i forsee brazil italy agentina and germany in the final 4

2006-06-11T14:24:00.000+08:00

yawns.. long wk.. booking out on sat aftnoon and booking in on sunday evening sucks big time... but anyway.. i like driving.. but my instructor kinda sucks... the way he judges our driving skill really depends on whether or not jun xiang and me drives before the 2 that have driving license.. and he compares us with him.. so of coz we suck compared to pplr who've been driving for years.. duh... anyway.. got my provisionary driving license.. next big thing is my highway situational problems.. then will be my landrover driving assesments before i can go on to driving the 3 tonner.. i wanna get everything done fast.. really miss life in 36.. freedom and non-regimentalism.. i miss it.........

2006-06-02T20:25:00.000+08:00

ok.. so this wk was attached to staff tan to do sai kang.. yawn... long wk... ran 10 click on tue and thur and 3.2 today.. legs starting to hurt... haiz... never ran so much in my life... and we do it twice a wk now.. sux... anyway... starting my driving course next wk... kinda excited tt i'm finally gonna be able to step on a gas peddle and like worried coz heard alot of stories bout insane instructors.. haiz.. sucks sia... driving course schedule sux also.. book in at 2130 sun to sembawang and book out at 1pm from kakibukit camp.. short wk ends... suckiness... haiz... o well.. i better get my liscense.. tts the only thing tts making it worth while..

2006-05-28T12:03:00.000+08:00

recently realised that pple in bmt seems to be damn kanchiong about everything.. even i was like that.. but when i think about it now.. the things we kan chiong about is really nothing.. like not bringing things and stuff like tt... bmt is like so relax.. nothing will happen to u if u don't do the things they say la... haiz... anyway... i'm so bored... waiting for my driving course to start.. 1 more wk... waiting.. waiting... so now attached to RSM.. doing sai kang for him... last wk dug a thousand sand bags... absolute "fun"..

2006-05-02T10:48:00.000+08:00

life's a blur
hmm.. recently recieved both my acceptance letters from nus and ntu.. nus-science , ntu-bio science .. both my 1st choice la.. really dunno wad to do next time.. been considering it for months and i still don't know what to do in uni.. i really wanna do vet.. but tt means i would have to go australia to do it.. and its really ex.. and i really mean ex.. spoke to a vet a few days ago.. she said tt i'll forever be in debt.. and yea.. i calculated it.. if i take up a study loan i'll probably take 5-10 yrs just to pay up.. and she said i'll probably have to get a car and with all the other living expenses.. the cost of living would be.. "yikes".. then its also scary to live in a foreign country all alone..

on the other hand it'll be an easier way out by studying in singapore and going on to do biology.. which i actually wouldn't mind studying.. but then what would my job choices be? a teacher? researcher? conservationist? i wouldn't mind eventually going for my PHD and eventually become a lecturer or something...its for sure alot cheaper and alot easier.. but is tt what i really want? would i want to spend my whole life in a bloody lab? or playing with fishes? ARHHH!! help me decide!

"the greastest problem is choice"- the matrix

2006-04-22T10:44:00.000+08:00

nobody blogs anymore.. even i'm getting bored of blogging... yawn... no blogs to read.. so all i'm left with is actually typing something down... actually got alot of things i wanna say bout my ns life la.. but too many things tt i learn are classified.. so much so that i got no idea what i can and cannot write..

anyway.. in 3 wks i'm gonna learn how to drive.. courtesy of the SAF... hope i can get my liscence the 1st time round..

2006-04-22T10:33:00.000+08:00

ok.. now i'm in my new unit to complete the 2nd phase of my course.. not allowed to reveal too much.. also don't even know what i can write la.. scully msd come calling.. haha.. anyway.. now i'm at serlarang camp at changi.. things here rock.. we aint treated like trainees or anything anymore.. no need to march no need to do drills other than parades..life here totally rocks..alot of free time.. hopefully next wk we can get every night nights off..

2006-03-18T17:42:00.000+08:00

ok... got my posting already.. posted to 39 SCE at seletar camp.. gonna be a " Chemical Biological Radiological Explosive Pioneer - Explosive Ordance Disposal Driver".. sounds damn cool... i'm gonna be playing with bombs! yipee! monday gonna be gone... sian... hope training will be like bmt.. slack enough not to feel like dying.. but tough enough not to get unfit..

anyway.. heres wad i'm applying for..
NUS: dentisry ( though i know i wont get in) and Science
NTU: Science and Bioengineering
though i'm applying for all these my 1st choice is still to study veterinary science in uni of melbourne... though i don't have the cash... so i'll probably take a study loan or something.. anyway.. only applying aft ns la.. so i'll still have time to really think it through carefully...

o well.. these few days of slacking have been great.. really good chance to catch up some Zs.. time to get ready to go back.. restocked some items... but don't know wad i'll need..hope i get to wear one of those cool ass bomb suits...

2006-03-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

woo.. POP le.. hmm.. mix of feelings la.. glad tt i'm finally not the lowest life form around... but also sad cos it means tt i'll be going unit soon.. and tt means no more slacking around.. well.. at least for the initial training la... sian.. o well.. at least i have until the 19th to relax... though i'm still prob gonna excersize every other day la... haiz.. lifes so boring.. still used to island life la.. feeling tired at 10pm and waking up naturally at 5-6... tt sucks... want to sleep more oso cannot... ARHH!!!! actually i don't really care where i go now.. sispec or ocs or wadeva.. just hope my back can tahan the training.. anyways... still got no idea where to go aft ns.. hmm.. still a blur... haiz... so screwed up.. well.. prob blog again tmr since i plan to spend the day rotting at home..

2006-03-01T21:21:00.000+08:00

woo hooooo!!! damn happy today la... just got back my a' level results... i got maths-A chem-A bio-B and GP-B3.. tts was wad i was hoping for la so i'm damn happy la... haha.. anyway.. 1 wk to POP.. extra reason to celebrate... :D till then!!!

2006-02-18T20:56:00.000+08:00

ok.. haven't posted in a loooong time... hmmm.. got a short break from tekong again... hmmm.. so heres how things are...

completed my range, granade throwing and field camp... left BAC IPPT SIT SOC and POP.. then i'll be done.. woooo... but not much time actually left for that.. i have 2.5 wks left to complete it.. o well next wk is ippt and sit test... hope i can do well in both... honestly i haven't actually decided whether i wanna go ocs anot.. many complications tt i can't really say right here.. so i think i'll left my sit test decide for me.. if i do well i think i shld go la.. so i guess i'll just say yes during EI.. will c how la... i think i don't mind being a SG if i get into some nice unit or something la...

hmm.. BMT seems to be really flying by la.. i'm actually starting to enjoy myself la... getting used to the fucking and everything la... the SGs also getting more fimilar with us.. anyway.. no time for now.. ciaoz...

2006-01-22T11:15:00.000+08:00

yay.. booked out yesterday at 6 going back intoday at 7.. this sucks.. haha.. but ns life isn't too bad la.. got used to the regimental living already... finished my 1st aid and m16s1 handling test already..not too bad... strip and assembled my rifle both well within the given 50 secs.. can squeeze the trigger of my rifle with the 10cent coin on the muzzle without dropping on my 1st try.. i love m16s man... haha.. anyway.. tried out my 1st imt( the arcarde m16 shooting thingy) already... so things are going past very fast.. pt getting more xiong liao.. foot drills too.. and when we return our commanders say life isn't going to be tt good already...

anyway.. i'm quite lucky.. my commanders all very good to us.. other platoons get pumped like hell we nv.. so far the most pumpings i got from our platoon commanders is only 10.. and tts due to us not cleaning up out bunk properly.. but done alot more for training and getting pumped by other sergeants la.. anyway.. my platoon is filled with pple from the top 5 jcs la.. only 3 pple from ny la including me...tts y they call our company the scolarship company la.. anyway.. time is gonna pass by very fast.. not long aft cny is field camp.. aft tt a few more wks and its out pop already... this is gonna be faster than i thought.. every wk i'm just gonna count down the 5 days...

anyway.. i think i'm getting fitter la.. i suck when it comes to the 2.4 otot.. but when it comes to the grp run i can keep up quite well... i think my arms became more muscular and i can finally c 4 of my pacs again.. tts cool... haha.. and i'm also alot more tanned... but u can c the admin t shirt and the pt singlet outline la... haha... but my body clock is very screwed up now.. every night i feel sleepy at 10 plus and auto wake up at 5.30 every morning... haha..

o well tts all for now.. till chi new yr...

2006-01-05T20:29:00.000+08:00

hmm.. ok tmr going tekong le.. bye pple will miss all of you..

anyway.. wenqi asked me to write 5 random stuff bout myself.. so here goes...
1. i can be an ass hole and an irritating bastard.. and i dont really care?
2. i'm a complete movie and tv addict.. i can watch tv and vcd for hours on end...
3.the main thing tt i'm looking forward to in ns is getting my m16
4.if i ever get a milllion dollars i'm gonna give half away to charity
5.i'm very clumsy?
dunno wad to write... anyway .. bye pple..

2005-12-27T20:10:00.000+08:00

hmm.. ok.. made a mistake i'm leaving for thailand on 31st and only be back on 3rd... aft tt i only have 2 days b4 i go ns.. suddenly aft shopping for ns stuff in m'sia did it dawn on me tt i'm actually going for it.. ever since i was young i was afraid of ns.. the only source of comfort was that there would be many more yrs b4 i actually ahve to go for it... then suddenly it seems so near.. o well.. but theres no running away from it.. i would, in the end, have to face it.. and i guess i have to deal with it.. i'm so unprepared physically.. if i went to retake napfa again i would fail like hell.. i got no idea how i'm gonna survive... then again its endurance more than strenght and endurance is mostly psycological.. so if i think i can, i can... o well.. and although those in ns already says its like so slack.. i think it's gonna be much harder for those in the 9wks bmt... well.. i think i'll survive? haha.. o well.. hope i got 1 last chance to blog b4 i leave for tekong.. if not then ciao ppl...

2005-12-21T09:41:00.000+08:00

ok.. my boredom is ending soon.. fri i'm going off to genting den sat i'll be in malacca all the way until monday.. then wed i'll be going for chalet with the judo clique.. its actually until fri but i can only stay until thurs night coz fri i'm gonna be flying off to bangkok until monday... then on fri i'll be going for BMT liao... so little free days left.. haiz.. somehow i kinda rather feel like rotting at home instead of constantly going out... haiz...but i have to go overseas.. don't have alot of time left to spend wif my family..
i'm gonna miss everyone... o well on the 5th day in ns i can come out le coz its hari raya.. cool.. then 3 wks aft tt its chi new yr lo.. wahahhaa... tt rocks.. o well.. this blog should be one of those unupdated ones for quite a long time... sob sob..

but then again this is what i've gathered from my comrads already in the army...
so far their training.. well at least for pegasus company is very slack... with a max of 30-40 push ups and 2.4k run.. and being free from 7.30 until 10.30pm so having time to slack ard and crap with fren and being able to call back... well.. the thing i hope the most is tt there is someone i know in the same section as me.. o well.. maybe i'll be in the same section as lee hsien loong's son.. apparently he was supposed to go pegasus company but a wk b4 entering.. he passed his napfa.. so he shld be entering at the same time as me.. and since there is only 2 companies when i enter.. he maybe in the same one as me.. i'll pray and pray and pray la...

haha.. anyway.. more tales from inside tekong... stories gathered from frens.. got this guy from pegasus company fell down when running up the stair during a 1 min toilet break.. so he cracked his skull and got air evac back to sg hospital.. so now they can't run up the stairs and toilet breaks are at least 3,4 mins.. bloody slackers!!!! haha...
from ray: his section got ghost and he felt one.. if u wanna noe more go ask him urself..

anyway.. guess tts all for now ba.. prob update once i get back from m'sia or tmr if i'm damn bored.. ciaoz..

2005-12-17T11:20:00.000+08:00

O YA! I finally figured out what that 2 finger at the cheek is about! Just to jog everybody's history. during world war II Winston Churchill used to hold out two fingers whenever he made a speech to the public about the war. It was supposed to represent V for victory. So i figured that those girls doing that sign are actually intellectual history fanatics who idolise Winston Churchill and are trying to immortalise that bit of history in today's pop culture! Man, my original hypothesis must have been way off. That only shows that we should not judge, because u'll never know how brainy, organised and mature these people are.

WAHHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAA

2005-12-17T10:59:00.000+08:00

I don't get it. People always claim that for a ideal multi racial country there must be racial tolerance. But doesn't the word tolerance itself only suggest that there is an underlying hate and discrimination towards other races? Like when you tolerate someone's nonsense u actually hate it but endure it. Then if you actually have some sort of underlying hate how can it truly be a multiracial society that truely respects one another regardless of race? I mean why doesn't the government actually teach us from young to understand, accept and respect the fact that there are other people of different skins and practices, instead of being taught from a very young age that we must tolerate. So in a way the government actually teaches us to have an underlying hate towards and segregation from other races, and doesn't this kinda have an opposite result of what they intended?

But of cause, I do realise that I am talking about an ideal society because in reality it is only human nature to segregate and discriminate. And what better way to do that than basing the prejudice on the one's colour coding. REAL MATURE.

2005-12-13T12:04:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Time for more bitching... But this time i didn't really want to focus it so much on friendster. Instead, I'm trying to figure out why the hell girls i mean girls like to do tt, no. 2 with thier fingers and hold it up to their face, cheek or whatever, and I use the word girls to imply the immaturity. If u don't get what I mean then here's an idea http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v245/m0sk1t0/a.jpg. I mean, I simply don't get what its supposed to mean.

Maybe: "Buy 2 get 1 free" or "omg! I can't believe i have 2, i repeat 2 cheeks! omg!" or maybe its like base ball and they're signaling someone to run to 2nd base? Haha. Or maybe, just maybe, they're trying to act cute. Then again what so cute about the number 2? "O.. you cutey woosy baby little 2.. ooo.. you're just a number 2 aren't you.. you are.. o yes you are...."(in tt baby talk voice) Haha. Wierd ass.

Well, as you can tell, i'm actually trying to use proper English, well at least properly punctuated one. Turned out like shit because i have to keep going back to correct my mistakes.

2005-12-10T11:52:00.000+08:00

lol.. been visiting some dumb ass blogs... kinda got nothing much else to do.. realised i really can't stand those cute-sy kinda blogs.. or those pple who "act cute" on friendster.. i mean gosh.. pls stop this... grow up! *cringe cringe cringe* i wonder why they must act like tt? maybe some guys get turned on by tt? maybe... but.. i wonder why they would be turned on by chicks who wanna act like little kids.. maybe its some wierd pedophilic tendency.. sorta like oedipus complex thing where guys like more mature women because it reminds them of their mothers... and with regards to the 1st oddity.. aren't the chicks like worried about this tendency? and shldn't they feel offended rather than feel a need to do so? or maybe no one else ever thinks of it this way except me...hmm.. wierd world we live in... hmm.. or maybe i always look at things in an unsual way... whatever.... ain't supposed judge... psychology seems interesting.. haha...

hmm.. still wondering what my calling is... seem to have a passion for everything... can't decide... hmm... o well.. will see how in march....

2005-12-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

yawn.. boredom sux big time... spent the whole day lazing ard the house... thought today was the day tt dad was leaving.. well turns out its tmr... hmm.. moms really depressed.. dunno how to cheer her up... i really wish i could... hmm.. if i knew tt dad was going tmr i would have went wild wild wet wif clara and hs... o well.. it was either tt or escape but i'm kinda boycotting escape.. partially due to fear.. rmb tt that 2 gers fell off tt ride? i'm not suprised somethign like tt happened... i mean.. when i took the ride i thought it was bloody violent throwing pple ard left and right up and down.. i mean.. even space mountain in the US was like a ferries wheel compared to tt and the bloody bar isn't tight la there was quite a big gap la and i had to really hold on tight la... either tt or i'm really skinny la.. which is quite true... haha...

anyways... there nothing to do online.. esp tt now so many pple have gone ns.. so bored no one to crap to liao.. only my trusty-old-blog.. haha.. so i ended up reading blogs like tt xiaxue... mr brown.. mr miyagi.. sarong party girl... don't really like xiaxue's blog.. she like this uber narcisistic, self-obessed zhi lian kwang... i know they all mean the same thing.. but.. haha.. muz kinda boost my point.. and tt sarong party girl should just change her nickname to "the BIG EASY".. i heard mrbown and mr miyagi's pod cast.. haha.. quite funny.. apparently its "ns humour".. see.. when one enters ns.. he actually regresses.. and laugh at dumb ass imitations, lame ass jokes and stuff la... so.. maybe me laughing at 'em is just a sign tt i'm ready for ns? haha... o well.. bloggers are WIERD.. haha... hmm.. just like me? maybe.. look.. i'm like talking to myself la.. haha...

N-e-way.... not gonna excersize over the week end... today ran bout 5k.. but walked bout half.. sucks la.. i'm still not ready to run.. gonna go back to sch and run track soon.. do power runs.. tt aorta boost up my stamina.. my mum ask me to go to the gym earlier.. hmm.. don't like the idea... somehow in my mind.. the idea of a gym seems to be like a bunch of beefy guys together.. and hearing stories of guy frens being approached by other guys... eee... just freaks this homophobe out... which is wierd.. coz i'm ok wif gers being les but terrified of guys.... just wierd...

hmm... i'm checking my larnyx for anymore verbal diarroeh.. hmm.. guess tts all for now... time to go eat some milk fermented by straptococcus lactis.. haha.. just kidding.. just wannted to use some of my left over a level bio brain matter...

2005-12-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

ciao my frens who are leaving tmr.... so long... shall join u guys in 1 mth time... gulpz... haha..

anyway...getting really bored with the internet.. nothing to do... blogging and blog surfing seems to be the only thing interesting left to do... life is gonna get even more boring wif everyone gone to ns and stuff... o well shall spend 24/7 excersizing..../ run lower pierce today.. bloody crappy run.. 1st i lost my stamina completely... 2nd-ly.. having a blister form on your ankle doesn't really motivate u to run either.. o well. in the end just explored lower pierce nature trails.. tmr i go try at bishan park.. if cannot den i go macrietchi run.. go no idea how to spell it.... anyway.. my pull ups are down to 4.. grrr... train train train.... *flexes minimal muscles** hurhhhhh*.. haha...

boredom sux...

2005-12-07T15:47:00.001+08:00

huh.......

2005-12-07T15:47:00.000+08:00

bright flash

2005-12-07T15:46:00.000+08:00

panda neo and me

2005-12-07T15:45:00.000+08:00

i can't see

2005-12-07T15:44:00.000+08:00

pri sch LL buddies

2005-12-07T15:43:00.001+08:00

le clique

2005-12-07T15:43:00.000+08:00

friend-styled hair

2005-12-07T15:42:00.000+08:00

suk and me

2005-12-07T15:40:00.000+08:00

sinyi&me

2005-12-07T15:39:00.000+08:00

i still can't seeeeee

2005-12-07T15:38:00.000+08:00

i can't seeeeee

2005-12-07T15:37:00.000+08:00

pimpin haha

2005-12-07T15:32:00.000+08:00

the guys

2005-12-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

gela and me

2005-12-07T14:35:00.000+08:00

ok.. proms over... quite fun.. alot of things happened tt i saw and heard tt cannot be said here.. hahaha...

clubbing is fun... only when one has had a few drinks to drink... i think drinking teaches us.... how do dance like idoits.. clubbing enables pple who do not noe how to dance.. to dance...coz nobody can c u.. there is no room to really dance... and i got a feeling no one actually knows how to dance.. hmm.. new experience...

hmm.. i suppose dinner was good though i was too busy taking pictures to really enjoy the food.. it only aft tt did i realise i paid $80 for a dinner i did not eat alot of..

collected 18 pictures from friends so far... serve me right for preparing my cam.. changing batt... clearing memory... and forgetting to bring it....

could have used my handphone cam.. but serves me right fro sending it for repair 2 days b4 when it takes 3 days to repair...

wanted to try more drinks like margereta and martini-s and scotch at the club... but serves me right for having $100 but forgetting to take it...

hey.. sure beats sec 4 prom man... thank god i went...

2005-12-04T20:45:00.000+08:00

tmrs prom.. hmm.. bought a new jacket/blazer thingy and got a new hair cut from jean yip.. yup.. tt bought all.. shall post pics of tmr once i'm done... *hope i don't have to dance tmr*..

2005-12-02T09:54:00.000+08:00

yes.. finally bought most of my stuff yesterday... bought a longsleeve shirt from topman, a black pants from G2000 and a cross from 77th street...spent only $124.90 la.. not too bad... only left the shoes... gonna go out wif my family on sat... think going rock pot... wooo.. haha... finally its over and done with..but i think i still look kinda tooot... haha.. o well.. anyway.. yesterday.. went out clara, jx and hs again to watch hairy potty.. haha.. though i just watched it the day before.. hahhaa.. ok la... can watch 2 times tt means the movie wasn't too bad... hahha... then they helped me choose what to wear.. haha.. not sure if i shld get a suit, a blazer or not at all.. haha... haven't really decide... at 1st i thought i shldn't buy.. but now i found out i have a blazer at home.. but abit doesn't really fit.. o well.. whatever...

anyway... later today gonna go judo bbq... haha.. been going out almost everyday la.. haha.. surprisingly i'm not tt drained... o well ciaoz

2005-11-28T22:23:00.000+08:00

ok.. so here what i've been up to... fri.. went to fix my bloody handphone.. when i reach there aft waiting for like 20 mins.. they tell me they're out of stock and it'll only be there dis friday... and tt it'll take like 2 to 3 hours to fix it... anyway.. i wasn't tt pissed la.. at least not until i left and realise the parking cost me like $1.60! like complete waste of time and fuel!!!

anyway... sat.. went mahjong wif the kakies through the night.. haha.. so fun... staggered between mahjong and dis game ray's bro found called gunz... abit like cs cum gunbound... go check it out... www.gunzonline.com anyway.. so fun.. we messed with eugene when he was deep asleep.. opened his eyes and waved at him... haha... anyway.. didn't sleep through the night.. and by the time i got home on sunday i was like a bloody zombie.... red eyes and all.. haha.. spend most of sunday sleeping and only went out for dinner to celebrate nai nai's b'day..

anyway.. today went cycling with clara, jun xiong and hui shan.. haha.. so fun.. cycle until my ass hurts like hell.. haha.. good excersise too.. cycled from one end of east coast to the other... haha.. didbn't know u could get a tan from cycling... anyway.. we found dis quiet spot facing the sea next to safra resort.. so damn peaceful... all u can hear is the sea crashing against the shore and stone... the sizzling of the effervescence as the waves pull back into the sea.. so serene...
anyway... we were talking about going to all the different countries to backpack and hike.. so fun! oo... can't wait.. but it'll probably be like aft ns and tts still so far away.. decided to go new zealand 1st... so cool la.. i have been wanting to go there for like soooo long... uber fun...

anyway... i feel so free now tt A's are over la.. like there is nothing holding me back anymore...
ahh.. bliss....

2005-11-25T12:11:00.000+08:00

its over its over its over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha...anyway.. heres my plan...

today: get my phone fixed...
sat: go mahjong
sun: go out wif judo clique
mon:go east coast cycle wif class clique
tues:go watch hairy potty wif mahjong kakies

then tts all for now...
i really need to start shopping for prom clothes and cut my hair
also really need to start excersizing... 100 sit upps and push ups a day plus 2-4 clicks a day.. ns is near...

2005-11-23T16:37:00.000+08:00

FRIENDSTER the webbie for wierdos..

have anyone actually notice how many pple out there using friendster often use their "cute" picture and by using the inverted commas i am being extremely extremely sacarstic cos more often than not they are not cute..they use their finger pressing it against their cheeks and stuff.. smiling "oh so sweetly",used in the same way,doesn't just seem abit desperate?

and why do they use those picture where they use something to cover up half of their face to show the "good" side, same usage of the " "... i mean come on la... wads the point... are those people really that insecure and desperate? sometimes really make me shiver... o.. and there are those who fills the entire picture thingys with their own pictures... what i can't decide is if they are narcisistic and egotistical or insecure and attention seeking hoping for people to msg them telling them they look good and stuff making them fill "all warm and fuzzy inside"... friendsters wierd.. or at least the people who use friendster are wierd...

and there are those pple who use picture of like lesser known models and try to put their pictures there so sexually deprived and possibly even perverted men would msg them and add them as friends... i mean are they really soooo sooo deprived of a life and attention that they have to resort to using other peoples pictures just to get attention? and heres to those guys who add these pple wif fake accounts.. alot of them are guys! wake up and use some grey matter la... first of all.. alot of these pictures are taken from sggirls.com.. there is a bloody stamp at the bottom.. and come on la.. how many girls do you know go to that website completely filled with pictures of chicks.. wake up la huh? then there those guys who actually leave testimonials like "your so cute.. so pretty.. blah blah blah.." COME ON.. the real msg u really want to leave is "i want to get it on with you" if you are really willing to leave the former testimonial there.. you shld be daring enough to write what you truly mean cos its so obvious what you are thinking.. even that blind guy from that chinese singing superstar show would be able to see it... then for those guys who write msgs like "lets meet up" just think.. what if the erson behind the screen really is another guy.. like a big fat burly guy... honestly.. i think friendster really being filled up with rubbish.. more and more adds.. and wierdos... i really wonder why i still use it..

wierdass

2005-11-22T11:38:00.000+08:00

new skin... cool? haha.. 3 hours work... haha.. shld really be practicing bio mcq... haha... 2 more days to freedom =)

2005-11-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

*sigh of relief* todays my day of rest... shall resume mugging functions tmr... ok so far... shld still be able to do well if the rest of singapore screws up... haha... o well... lets just c eh? must have faith in the greater powers.. anyway... looking forward to 6 jan... can have fun then! woooo....

2005-11-01T17:30:00.000+08:00

GOOD LUCK FOR THE A's EVERYBODY!! CHEERS

2005-10-13T12:29:00.000+08:00

so yesterday was the last day of sch.. woo hoo.. but kinda sad... tt means ns is coming up soon.. tt means a 'eve's are coming up soon... sob sob.. but during grad ceremony.. mr tong's speach was really good... i think he's very carismatic... and the things he said really meant something.. though i can't remember it already.. haha... but i think wad shane said was really true.. jc life really had alot of ups and downs... but somehow.. no matter how i fell i knew tt i'd pick myself up somehow... corny eh? but true... anyway.. now tt its over.. i'm so glad tt i never have to put on another sch uniform ever again.. until a level tt is.. haha...but i think i'll really miss ny...so much more than tt stupid mf.. anyway... gonna start my serious serious studying now.. haven gotten back my momentum since prelims... but now i have to right aft i finsih typing this.. and i will NOT be blogging again.... i hope... haha...

btw.. did anyone notice that everynight on channel 5 news at 9.30 there is always a sagment on SERVICE?every night without fail... wierd.. it's like an ultra ultra long extension of PM lee's national day rally... months long extension.... ladies and gentlemen... there you have it.. our propaganda-ish media as usual... o well..hmm.. wonder the thought police would come for me...

2005-10-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

f**k.. i just typed for bout half and hour and when i posted it the website got somekinda error.... F**K it man.. i'm not gonna type again.... summary: i hate ms ch**ng... 28 days left.... i'm tired... i'm not studying enough.. and i hate o-so-control-freakish-singapore-tt-don't-allow-pple-to-blog-freely...

2005-09-30T14:42:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. so prelims went ok la... not good la.. but not tt bad either la... got CCE... C for chem and maths and E for bio... really gotta mug from now on... 39 more days left... so doubt i'll be blogging anymore... 5 weeks more... for 1st and 2nd wk i must revise chem and bio content as well as make notes... 3rd practice maths exam papers... 4th and 5th.. every thing.. hope tt helps... god.. i'm running out of time...

2005-09-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

singapore river

2005-09-18T21:49:00.001+08:00

cool clouds

2005-09-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

orchid

2005-09-17T14:00:00.000+08:00

finally i have time to blog again.. though i really shld be using the time to study biodiversity or something... haha.. anyway... i stilll am depressed... haiz.. just dont feel like my old self anymore.. maybe tt guy is lost or something.. tt care free guy.. haiz.. sad.. sometimes just feel so outside... like a differerent wavelenght from the rest of the world... i dont know..hope i can get out of this blue funk...

2005-09-01T18:41:00.000+08:00

this is it man... prelims already started... 1 wk left of studying... must use it wisely....gotta put aside all the personal shit... deal with it aft the end.. i've gotta focus...

i've left bio and chem options to revise and alot of math paper to do..

gp was alright.. think i could have put in more effort though.. essay was straight forward.. but tt means grading is gonna be tough...

going out to study wif ray almost everyday... amk library is still the most productive place for me... but the place is packed wif ny pple this whole week.. next wks gonna be even worse.. sadly.. i'll have to be one of those disgusting singaporeans and rush there at 945 to choop place.. jus hope i dont have to run for it again...

can't wait for all of this to end... exams and the personal shit....

2005-08-14T17:44:00.000+08:00

by requests.. or rather request.. haha.. i'm blogging.. think this'll be the last time until after my prelims... anyway... i've been staying back in sch to study recently.. usually wif my judo clique.. but i feel damn guilty la coz i always leave so much earlier than them.. o wellz... anyway.. i'm completely in a mess right now.. studies wise... too many test and hw... i can barely find time to revise and focus on what i think i need to study... i'm barely revising.. way too busy doing hw... in the end producing crap work... and mr low refuses to go through chem papers properly.. so i dont know where my mistakes really lie.. i'm done studying chem.. but i still cant seem to do papers well... bio.. i can bearly study... i'm panning to start today la.. but lets c how much i can complete... haiz... i'm soo bummed out... the only thing i've done for maths is to do papers.. but i've seemed to forget so many formulas already... haiz...

anyway.. yesterday i went to run aft sch... haven done so in a long time... surprisingly didn't feel tt tired and dont really have muscle aches today...

ok.. i shall go wat lunch and start studying aft tt... ciaoz.....

2005-07-25T19:11:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. haven't blogged for a while.. can hardly find time anymore.. been studying in sch aft sch for the past few days... stress.. prelims in 47 days.. gulps... really dunno how i'm gonna do it.. but i'll do my best... now i decided i shld aim to do well enough to go uni of melbourn or something... i really really wanna do vet...

anyways... stress a side.. i've finally got something to cheer me up... a mp3!!! ZEN NEEON!!.. haha.. i really love it sia.. haha...its my new study companion....

last night only got 3 hours sleep.. but somehow i feel tired but not as tired as i thought... isn't tt hard to keep my eyes open... but the moment i close it i'll fall into slumber... anyway... i gotta go eat dinner now...

didn't know reading the bible was so fun.. haha

2005-07-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

yay... our judo girls got bronze! so happy... so excited... YAY! they really fought for it... the guys though didn't get anything... fought hard... but o well... all did nanyang proud....

anyways.... right now i'm like feeling so craped up... really got too much stocked up depression emotions packed up inside me... i really feel like exploding.. haiz... depressed about my marks.. depressed wif the utter lack of an wei-ness... haiz... plus somehow i feel rejected by some people sometimes... plus i got no idea what my dream is... i got no idea if the path i'm heading down is the right one for me..... to many things too worry about.. and this is merely the tip of the ice berg... i really cant take it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz... and no one will ever notice my melancholy... unless of coz...they read this... maybe its because of my ever plastic smile.. grin... maybe i'm just like my father.. maybe i have a fear of showing my true emotions... i don't know.. but no matter how much i want to display my sadness i can't.. people expect me to always be happy... haiz.. and sometimes tt makes me even sader... haiz..
i'm tired... tired of everything.... haiz.... can't take it anymore...
anyway... i just feel like saying.. my mum rocks! haha... totally unrelated but i think its ture...

2005-07-07T21:00:00.000+08:00

haiz.... got back all my a level subjects today.... and all of em were aos.. cant believe it... i'm soooooooooo depressed... ok la.. i sorta expected something like tt when i did the paper la.. but still.. i'm sad... arrrhhh! sometimes i just want to scream out.. arrhhhh!!! haiz... anyway.... this is my goal la for A's la.. seems so near now...

Chem-A
Bio-A
Maths-A
GP-B3

haha.. i said goal... didn't say i'll get it... haha.. i mean who doesn't aim high? haha... but i got

chem- ao(41)
bio-ao(42)
maths-ao(42)
gp-??

haha.. owell... i got an extra letter.. haha.. haiz... so sad.... but yet i'm still joking... haiz.. tts depressing

anyway... i think i really can get a for chem... but i plan to redo every single tutorial.. i know i can do it! yes! jia you! seems like i'll be the only one whose gonna be cheering myself up as usual.. poor old lonely me... plan to redo all tutorals for maths too... i think tts the best way lor... its only bio that i don't know how to study... i mean.. i've tried to memorise the book word for word and it doesn't work.. i tried doing tys and learning the ans and it doesn't work.. i've tried all the methods i know from sec sch and it doesn't work.. i am really at a lost lor.. ARRRH!!!!.. i really want to juz tear apart all my notes and burn them... hellpppppp... haiz... and like usual.. i.. shall figure out a way by my.. self.... haiz... poor old lonely me... haiz... such a funked-up mood... did worse than last yrs midyrs....

o well.. guess i can't keep looking back at the past... its only forward from here.. so this is my study schedule from now on starting from next wk...

CHEM- redo phy chem tutorials... (week 3-5)
- redo inorg chem tutorials... ( week 6)
- redo org chem tutorials.... (week 7-8)
- memorise, learn and do tutorials for environ chem (week 9)
- do at least 3 other schs prelim papers.... ( week 10)
BIO -learn and redo detailed notes for yr 1 topics ( week 3-5)
-learn and redo detailed notes for yr 2 topics ( week 6-7)
-learn and redo detailed notes for option topics ( week 8-9)
- do at leasr 3 other sch prelim papers ( week 10)
MATHS -do partial fract, binomal expan, inequal, APGP, Math Induc,
functions,P&C, trigo, 3d trigo all prelim papers qsts (week 3-5)
- do vectors, differenciation, maclaurins, curve sketching,
intregration, DE, complex no.... (week 6-7)
- do stats (week 8)
- do tys and prelim papers at least 5 (week 9-10)

man.. i really hope this jacks ups my grades.....

2005-07-04T18:39:00.000+08:00

yawn... exams ended on thurs... i'm a free man for a while... so bored... i'm tired... anyway.. i screwed up my exam... totally... gonna be so sad.... haiz... o well... dun feel like talking about it until results are out...

2005-06-20T18:08:00.000+08:00

bored to my socks.. nothing to do but study.. my brain is melting... arrhhhh... help................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
so bored.......

2005-06-19T21:43:00.000+08:00

try roasting ham with a matchstick... killing flies with an arrow...

2005-06-18T20:15:00.001+08:00

i'm afraid of my thoughts... does tt sound wierd? maybe...

2005-06-06T18:24:00.000+08:00

yawn yawn.. doubt i'm gonna be posting over the next few weeks... gonna try to make a mad rush to finish all the topics for mid years...haiz... jc life kinda sucks... i've only covered inorg chem and physical chem... still left organic and environmental chem.. as well as all my maths and bio...

and i'm gonna be going for judo camp la... going until thurs... then fri my mom and auntie gonna be leaving to go for a tour to china... gonna be responsible for all my animals and the house la.. coz dads gonna be very busy working... got some project in saudi aribia... seems like my whole family's leaving the country except for me.. i hate growing up... the responsibilities suck... face it.. its easier to be reliant on others.. sad but true... o well.. but if my dad gets the project... hes gonna work like shit... gonna be damn stressed and all but he says in 3 yrs he'll be able to finally retire and take life easy.. i really hope tt he can... he views life in such an uptight manner.. sorta reminds of my grandma.. although he hates to be that person.. he seems to become more and more like tt.... how wierd... hope i'll remain carefree.. though i am losing that part of my gradually... sob sob... anyway.. i realy hope he can relax and take life at a more relax pace.. i think inner-peace is what keeps pple in the best spiritual health... hmm.. o well

bon voyage mom and auntie flossie...
relax dad... don't be stressed out so much... and dont smoke to destress...
and miss ya jie!

peace..

2005-05-31T13:02:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt alone? feel like that the only person who knows your problems is you? bored of everything? bored of thinking? ever feel like just lying back and watch the world go by? too lazy to move a muscle? sometimes the greatest evil is to do nothing.. but how sure are you that by taking action u will accomplish good? what if that action leads to evil? ever feel like you are at a cross road? lost in a never ending cycle of desicions? ever got lost in a never ending cycle of emotions? life sometimes never seem to lead anywhere... the same never ending cycle... what ever happened to the time when life was simple? where one could just run free non stop enjoying the fresh air.. the smell of sweet sweet morning dew... the feeling of long grasses slidding between your toes.. where one could leap into the air and fall on the ground and not caring bout the pain of reality... where one could just enjoy the simple beauties in life.. the beauty of a simple white flower.. the simple beauty of green grass brown wood... what happened to those days? reality sucks... i wish i could just keep on dreaming.. and what makes reality so enjoyable?why isn't the illusion of a blissful life enough? what makes reality, reality?after all reality is only a result of our dreams, our aspirations.... except with all the harshness of the consequences... reality does not provide people with 2nd chances.. reality is harsh and unforgiving... why then.. why is it so desirable? maybe because it is after all... real...

-verbal diarrorea

2005-05-25T18:01:00.000+08:00

this has really gone on for too long.. what happened to our freedom of speach? why can't we blog about what we want to... yes it might me at the expense of others and cause hurt and blah blah blah... but come on la... whatever happened to democracy and being able to say what we want? we shouldn't be prosecuted for whatever we are blogging.. it just doesn't makes sense... isn't a blog a medium for which we can express our thoughts? is singapore's media control really as bad as it seems? where people can be sued based on their own thoughts? in case u haven't realised by now.. i'm actually b*tching bout the case bout that singapore scholar talking crap bout A*star or something... and today in assembly we get warned for wad we blog about... maybe its because our we are linked to the school and the school might get into trouble or something.. but why would our thoughts represent the school? now we don't even have freedom of thought? hmm.. o well.. bloody craped up society we live in... this is even worse than having the police or something to go over a speech a person wants to make at the speakers corner... maybe thats why our media freedom is ranked right infront or behind.. i cant rmb.. of iraq... tsk tsk...

anyway.. i'm so drained from pt... doubt i'll be able to walk tmr...

2005-05-21T14:09:00.000+08:00

finally.. got some time to post... rather.. got the mood to post... finally been going to judo again.. so fun.. so tiring... o well... yea!!! i'm so happy i'm not selected to represent sch for comp la... no need to train so tough.. muscles all aching
anyway.. life is getting more and more boring these days... all my free time is spent sleeping... i'm just too tired to work already.. getting more and more drained... sighs...
studys aren't doing too good.. been failing maths recently... hope i can pass bio... my chems also deproving.. GPs going down the drain too... goes to show i'm not working hard enough...
watching star wars on tues.. yay yay... sorta star wars fan...
later going for LL... haiz...
i really must start working hard during holis...
mondays-bio maths
tues- chem maths
weds-chem bio
thurs-bio
fri- maths
sat- chem
sun- gp and relax..
hope i can do this the whole holi...

2005-05-08T20:21:00.000+08:00

the loop of henle enables mammals to produce hypertonic urine. it employs the principle of a hairpin counter current multipier to concentrate sodium chloride towards the medulla.. what the hell does tt mean... i've been reading this for hours and i'm still blur... help.... maybe getting drunk the night b4 the test helps...

2005-05-01T13:08:00.000+08:00

yeah.. finally got time to post.. haha.. so... nothing much actually happened this past few days... haven't been going for judo lately due to the fact that i'm still somewhat sick... sob sob.. really miss judo... anyway.. my mum's collegue's daughter past away a few days ago.. sob sob.. god bless.. so my mum went to help out on fri... hmm.. yeah...

anyway... yesterday went for some stupid big walk at uob plaza for cip... some singapore federation of chinese clan association thingy... had to wake up at 6.10 on a sat morn lor.. so sian... anyway... the walkwas for like 2 hrs.. later went on to suntec for breakfast at mac's wif my claz pple.. den went to watch infection wif judo pple... lame-ass stupid show.. total waste of my money lor... the scariest part was when qiu xuan scream... hahaha... den had to rush home aft the movie to go get ready for LL which i wrote crap for the essay.. actually i had a clear outline of wad i wanted to write.. very well planed out in my head.. if actually wrote that i thik i could get an A.. but i didn' have enough time.. by the time i reached the end of my 1st agruement i was already almost at the end of my 2nd page... so i scraped the idea and decide to juz write crap... anyway i think that i tend to write alont on the sci questions... easier to write la.. all almost the same content.. haha.. exactly wad my sister used to do.. haha.. influence... haha...

anyway later on i went to auntie flossie's house to have dinner and stayed till bout 9... den went home 1st... aft tt i watched the jay leno show.. and they had a guest singer... anna nalick... some never heard of before ger.. but omg.. she was soooo chio! haha.. and she can sing! haha.. anyway.. heres a video of her.. http://www.annanalick.com/video/AnnaNalick_Breathe2AMVidFull.mov
haha.. so cute.. :D

anyway... tonight i'm gonna go watch the lord of the dance... watched the shots and it looks so cool!!! hahaha... i think i'm gonna enjoy myself to night.. haha... but the tix were ex la.. cost like 63 bucks a tix.. haha.. o well.. guess i'm off to do my load of home work.... soo much to complete... siann...........

2005-04-16T22:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm... haven blogged in a long long long time... haiz... things have been going soso dis few days... on the bright side.. i got back my gp block tests and over all i got a b4... and i got 6.5/7 for my aq.. cool.. haha.. maybe LL's working aft all.. i got a band 2 for my pw.. not too bad considering i contributed so little articles and our group made so much changes and got so much conflicts... 10k got those days are over...

anyways... i'm still trying to keep up wif the never ending pile up of homework... its driving me insane.. plus nafa coming up.. i really hope i can pass.. i finally can do 5 pull up though the last 1 is no standard.. haiz... haven ran in a long time.. hope to train up soon... i think maybe tmr i going to run.. haven been to judo in a long time too.. think i lost touch liao lor... have been coughing for 2 wks now.. i feel sick on the day of the comp den have been having cough since.. and i coughed blood once on tues wed thurs and fri on each day.. scary... maybe i got tb.. haha... seems like jc life is all bout mugging and cca... and speaking of cca.. judos only gonna stop in july lor.. so shitty... no time to study... shity shity shity...

anyway.. por por's in hospital.. think shes gonna be released soon.. down wif lung infection.. i really really hope she gets better... hmm.. dads quiting his job gonna work wif his fren aft tt i think.. not really tt clear... hmm.. sister's gonna go to us soon..may 4th i think.. better buy me something back.. haha.. hmm.. moms got abit of my cough.. poor mom... teddy's juz as cute but getting fatter by the day.. cocoa's heads still not growing.. haha.. he got such a small head.. hahhaa.. hmm.. i guess i'm getting bored and typing nonsence.. shall stop now..

2005-04-07T19:05:00.000+08:00

Big Five Test Results

Extroversion (59%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
Friendliness (61%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex).
Orderliness (50%) medium which suggests you are moderately organized, structured, and self controlled while still remaining flexible, varied, and fun.
Emotional Stability (57%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Openmindedness (74%) high which suggests you are very intellectual, curious, imaginative but possibly not very practical.

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2005-03-29T18:40:00.000+08:00

sian

haiz... today got back chem and bio results... 1st the good news... i did quite alright for chem.. got 38/60.. which is like 63.3333%.. hmm.. is tt a b or c??? anybody noes?
anyway.. bad news... i got back bio... bloody mofo.. haiz... got 11/70.. tts like 15.7%... haiz.. so sian la.. although only one person passed in the whole level.. i'm still very dissapointed in myself la... i studied for 6 days... the 6 days tt i could have spent on chem and gotten a bloody a la... and wad did i get for my effort? a bloody F.. FFFFF... haiz... i feel so screwed la.. i really must study.. but i kinda lost all my moral to study liao... haiz.......................
just wait till i get back my maths and gp... haiz..

2005-03-23T13:37:00.000+08:00

its over!!!

haha.. yay! anyway.. bio wasnt too bad..could more or less vomit out all that i memorised...
chem... ok la.. i could ans most qsts but whether it was right or wrong is another thing la..
maths.. haha.. screwed screwed screwed.. haha.. i hope i pass la.. i really need to work on my maths.. pple best sub normally maths.. i think my maths could juz be my worst..
gp.. hmm.. i dunno leh... i feel like i got not much points to write leh.. i noe tt i didn't write out of point.. but my points are wierd leh.. hmm.. confused.. shall juz hope for the best...

o well.. leaving home soon to go play pool wif jx.. i miss pool... haha.. anyway..i miss pool and mahjong... sob sob.. sat i'm gonna go for a 5-star multi course itilian dinner.. woo hoo.. haha.. so happy.. but i sorta dun have anything nice to wear leh.. i feel like buying tt topman shirt.. but dunno if its still there...and i oso want a nice belt wif a huge buckle.. muahahha.. anyway.... i shall go change soon.. ciaoz...

2005-03-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

1 down 3 to go

hmm.. left 3 more subjects.. haha.. so glad i'm ending on tues! haha.. can slack.. i really should be studying now la.. i spent most of the time studying bio more than anything... so bio wasn't too bad.. juz worried i didn't ans to the qst or didn't ans enuff.. haiz... anyway... i spent like tue- thurs at amk library studying almost the whole day.. haha.. saw this cute ger from hcjc.. haha... saw this same old man i've been cing every morning ever since o'level days... haha.. anyway.. saw nicholas(j1) there.. hmm.. i also had to play a bad guy and shut up some stupid mayflower kids... hmm.. yea.. guess tt was the most exciting thing tt happened then.. otherwise it was mugging and mugging and more mugging.. sian.. tmr i got judo grading.. going for orange belt.. i seriously hope it ends in time for me to go for gp tuition.. o wellls...guess tts all.. shall do some maths now...

2005-03-07T21:36:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. i really shouldn't be blogging and start studying for block tests.. o well... dis is wad i got so far...

fri (18 mar) (lt4) {8-930} -bio-whole of transport and energetics...
mon (21 mar) (lt4) {745-11} -gp
tues (22 mar) (lt4) {745-945} -maths-Permutation & Combination; Integration(Definite &Indefinite Integration, Area & Volume, Trapezium Rule); Complex Numbers (Problems on Complex Number in Algebraic Form, Complex Numbers on Argand Diagram); Trigonometry (Identities & General Solution of Equations); Curve Sketching (stationary points, asymptotes, etc.)
tues (22 mar) (lt4) {1-3} -chem-ionic eqm; all organic chem until hydroxyl

this is "FUN" man.. *sighs*.. and wedged btw is judo grading.. going for orange belt on sat.. dunnno wad time yet.. haiz...

holidays studying schedule:
mon- chem and bio
tues- chem and maths
wed- chem and maths
thurs-bio and bio and bio and bio.. haha..
sat-gp tuition
sun- read some gp stuff and maths

hmm.. doubt i'll actually follow this.. but what the heck.. plan to score at least a c or b for all subs.. cannot fail liao.. sighs...

i'm really losing sleep and my sanity.. i completely lost my suaning abilities today... and lameness... haiz... feel like a zombie... o well..

i'm lame i'm cynical i'm flawed i'm judgemental i'm stupid i'm slow i'm weak i suck i'm a jack of all traits and a master of none.. never exceled in anything in my life before.. i have no niche.. i dont know what i'm on earth for..

2005-03-04T20:45:00.000+08:00

i got d7 for chi!!! wooo hooooo!!! haaha... so totally overjoyed.. no more chinese for the rest of my life!!! hahaha... woooooo... lalala... so happy.. hahahhaa... yea.. anyway... went to watch movie wif qiu xuan, wen qi, gela and neo.. caught hitch... damn nice show lor... the ger so chio... haha....:P haha.. anyway.. nothing much else to say.. so ciao

2005-02-28T16:50:00.000+08:00

we won 2golds 1 silver and 1 bronze!!!!
woo hoo... so happy.. haha.. although i got knocked out in the 1st round.. hahaha.. but i think i really tried my best and i'm quite pleased.. though i think i could have done better if i didn't pon so much... hmm.. anyway... tt 3 mins in the dojo really feels like eternity.. especially when tt mere 3 minutes of fighting feels worst then a 3km run... in the end he won coz when times up he had more points then me.. haha.. o well.. haha.. shall train harder now and i hope i can face tt guy again.. haha.. fun sia.. owell..
anyway.. from here on til prob aft the block test... i dun think i'll be blogging much.. have to really start studying.. gulps.. i have alot of chapters to cover in such a short amt of time.. o well.. tts all for now.. ciaoz

2005-02-25T21:06:00.000+08:00

haven blogged in quite a while... hmm.. sunday i'm going for judo comp... hmm.. not really as worried bout it as b4.. juz gonna go there to try my best and c wadeva the results... trained harder on thurs.. last prac b4 sun mar.. so i got alot of wounds on my wrist now.. den bao the plaster until looks like i slit em.. haha..anyway.. at the same time hurt my back and knee... o well.. bet it'll be back to norm by sun.. hmmm.. got some stupid maths test on thurs... so sian.. i think tt i did not to bad.. but my ans dun really seem to telly wif the rest..o well.. juz wait for the results and c how..
on a brighter note.. monday the j1s gonna get thier results.. and FINALLY... the canteen can be emptier.. at least for a while.. dun always have to squeeze wif the rest..
i'm seriously getting more and more tired these days... that everyday of excersize thing is really taking its toll.. everyday oso got muscle aches.. o well.. guess its training for ns..
hmm.. i think tt i'm very cynical.. and i realise tt its really my nature.. ever since i was a kid i was cynical have always liked to critise and suan.. hmm.. dunno wad to do bout tt.. i really wonder if it irritates pple alot.. hmm.. o well..

2005-02-16T21:23:00.000+08:00

injured and tired
haiz.. i've got blisters all over my hand.. i'm gonna feel drained foreva now...
monday i have judo
tuesday i have pe
wed i have PT
thurs i have judo
fri i have pe
i really wonder how long i'll last.. got blisters over blisters... did bout 15 pull ups for pe y-day.. did another 15 for judo pt.. haiz....
plus my cat's injury is not healed yet.. but he still wants to go out and wonder the street.. he's getting restless liao.. trying to take my maths tutorial as his chew toy.. haha...
the weather is bloody hot now.. so many forest fires in sg liao.. had to do pt in the scorching sun... *melting in my pants* haha.. o well.. guess tts 10x to global warming.. haven seen rain in bout 2 to 3 weeks? maybe more? maybe 4.. haiz.. miss the feeling of ice cold rain on my skin coming down so heavily tt it stings.... the strong brushing past my skin.. howling its fury in my ears.. haha.. i'm becoming dilusional.. hahaha...
plus.. i'm sooooo sian of sch food.. i'm sooooooo soooo soooo sick of fried rice wif black pepper chicken chop.. i'll juzz lose my appitite if i taste it.. and it did happen the other day...
on a brighter note.. i think my guai ness is finally paying off.. i got like a pass for the chem test( dunno my actual marks)..judging by the fact tt there are classes wi no pass at all.. hmmm.. i am getting more and more lame... as in really very lame.. haha.. hs:" the daisy was dying.." me:" den donald duck very sad rite?" hahaha.. LAME!!!! hahaha.. ok.. gettin skizo liao.. ciaoz..

2005-02-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

time to post! haha.. so.. this was wad happened during chi new yr..
tues nite went for reunion dinner at nite,
wed morning stayed at home and my relatives from my fathers side came over.. and as usual.. uncle jay gave $100!!!!! woohoo!!! not tt i really care how much he gives.. its the thought tt counts..$_$.. hahahha.. anyway.. later tt nite.. went to popo's house.. and slacked there doing the usual chi new yr things like playing ass hole dai di.. haha.. hmm..
thurs went over to felix house.. played 2 rounds of mahjong wif the adults and won a bit of money b4 passing it back to my mum.. haha.. den met felix later for constantine.. not bad a movie.. hmm.. den came back for steamboat aft tt....
fri.. went to sch.. and only 5 pple came!!!!! wahahaha.. mdm lai blew her top lor.. haha.. bet monday shes gonna scream and shout at everyone.. haha.. o well.. later tt nite went coach tan's house to pai nian.. damn fun lor.. he is damn rich.. i thik he spent bout $500 plus on us total.. and more.. felt so pai sei lor... and i think he like so accomplished.. he has like one complete book of articles filled about him.. he was in national judo team, national dragon boat team, i think still got canoe and kayak.. and represent sg in internation competetions lor.. and oya.. he was a life guard.. i'd be so happy if i got half as many awards as him lor.. anyway.. there we played 21 dots.. haha.. blackjack rather.. den we count the points.. den for each point we muz do 5 push ups.. totaling mine to 55 push ups lor.. do until wanna die la.. haiz.. cry sia..and now i got muscle ache..
today... went to pai nian at clara,mine,huishan and jx's house.. haha.. fun sia.. spent alot of time traveling though.. and watched mean gers at clara's house.. quite a ok show la.. a little cliche though.. anyway.. juz got home and eaten my dinner and watched cat in the hat.. haha.. dumb but interesting show again.. haha... i think i watch alot of movies lor.. haha.. i'm ur everyday movie freak...

2005-02-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

haha.. new background new format.. woo hoo.. i created tt background... and tts teddy!!!! cute huh.. looks so so so sad..

2005-02-04T19:38:00.000+08:00

arrhhhh.. my energy's draining away fast!!! lack of sleep, test aft test aft test.. arrhhh.. (got 2 gp test and 1 chem test dis wk).. haiyo.. cannot stand it liao..my brain is starting to lose its functions.. lameness is increasing.. haha.. i'm oso becoming siao and starting to act crazy.. as if i wasn't b4.. haha.. anyway.. something really wierd happened to me the other nite..
went to slp ard 11.. den as i fell aslp, i sudden felt my upper body go all tinggly and stuff.. wanted to move my arm but i couldnt.. wanted to turn but i couldn't.. den i wanted to tok but i couldnt!! den suddenly.. i went "ahh" and then i could move and every thing.. haha.. freaky huh.. haha.. but act it wasnt tt freaky to me.. coz apparently alot of pple claim that when they were visited by ghosts.. they feel something like tt.. budden some scientist guy says that its perfectly normal if ur tired and stuff and its part of ur subconcious thingy.. haha.. so i went back to slp.. and it happened again.. hahah.. o well.. guess i'm wierd.. haha...o well.. haha..
anyway.. had that stupid chem test.. not to bad la.. although i know i like had 2 qsts wrong.. thought it would be much harder.. haha.. and the gp test was ok la.. wrote crap for aq.. haha.. as usual.. wonder how i'll fair.. hmm.. the essay i thought was quite ok la..i was actually planing to write bout democracy.. even did research and stuff.. budden when i saw the actual qst.. i got no idea wad to write.. and when i saw the environment qst.. i thought was quite straight forward.. haha.. tts soo normal of me to write environmental qsts... but actually.. i was trying to move away from that bcoz i feel that its quite unlikely to come out for exams.. cozi looked at the tys.. majority of the years got science and tech, religion and other stuff.. but like only 2 or 3 yrs got environment qst and if i'm not wrong like 2/3 of the environment qsts is like bout animal rights.. hmm.. o well.. guess tts all for now.. and oya.. its my sis's b'day today.. ahaha.. but so sad.. shes sick.. and its quite bad.. sob sob poor her.. we even had to cancel tmrs fine dining.. T-T for her.. o well.. gave her the cute t-shirt i bought for her.. haha.. hope she likes it.. anyway.. ciaoz for now..

2005-01-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

aft judo training

2005-01-29T22:45:00.001+08:00

newspaper loaded onto the lorry

2005-01-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

newspaper collection.. wow.. alot sia

2005-01-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

hmm.. so heres wad happened dis wk..
wed i had cross country.. i'm sooo suprised i jogged through the whole thing... ok la.. i walked a tiny little bit.. but it was like 100 meters only.. yeah.. but unfortunately.. my timing was bad.. so when i got home.. for no reason.. i went to run 2.4 straight a way.. haha.. got no idea y.. hahaha.. den obvously i was super tired and i didn't move the rest of the day.. haha.. hmm.. fri i wore kai rong's mf uniform to sch.. haha.. coz i threw mine away liao.. haha.. almost my whole claz wore their old secsch uni la.. haha.. i think i look ooo sooo stuuupppid in mf uniform.. not to mention the pants is like translucent.. so everyone could c by black undies.. haha.. hmm.. den today had newspaper collection thingy.. hm.. completed it surpriseingly fast.. my 12 we were done.. haha.. actually quite a few things happened but i'm kinda lazy to type and i want to go watch poltergist liao.. haha.. ya.. anyway i went LL aft tt.. wrote a crap essay.. hhaa..ya.. ciao

2005-01-23T16:21:00.000+08:00

hmm.. maybe i shld start blogging bout my oooo sooo boring life.. haha.. anyway.. dis wkend( which for me starts on a fri) haha.. i've been playing pool pool and more pool.. haha.. think i'm finally starting to improve.. haha.. won a game against angie in record time! haha.. won prob coz she got tai ko shots.. haha.. anyway.. i really should be studying.. cing that i have a chem quiz on mon.. covering 3 chapters of inorganic chem... hmm.. i dunno how to discribe it.. its like.. i get more or less how to do the questions and i understand the stuff.. but i cant seem to regurgitate it properly.. hmm.. o well... shall c how tmr... anyway.. had LL y-day.. hmm.. i totally totlallly completely screwed up the AQ.. haha.. coz i only had ten minutes left.. and i really couldn't be bothered... wanted to go home to eat dinner.. but now i feel kinda guilty coz 1 lesson costs like $70 and not completely utilising the time and material there seems somewhat of a waste.. hmm..
tmr i have judo again.. hmm.. think i'm feeling more and more indifferent bout it.. though i am afraid to randoori wif that sulaiman guy.. hes damn scarry... haha.. he can do a kick up wearing gi!! tts crazy.. haha though quite besides the point.. he can knock down yen shen like nothing liddat la.. haha.. i'm probably like an ant to him.. haha.. o well.. hope hes not going tmr.. den can train better.. hope my arms not tt sprained as well.. o well.. back to chem...

2005-01-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

humans are such genocidal maniacs.. they often suscribe to ethnocentristic believes.. they think their race is more superior than others and they need to purify the world of the less superior races... hmm.. bet tt sounds damn out of this world in these times... but its true.. all through out the ages since biblical times.. till 2nd world war.. till today..
pple think tt its so sad that the tsunami took so many lives.. but the fact is that during the 2nd world war more than 10 times that othe the jews died.. tts from juz 1 country not 11! i mean..the greatest threat to human lives eventually is humans themselves..

2005-01-15T10:48:00.000+08:00

hmm.. ok.. finally done wif my blog design.. sian.. later going for learning lab.. haven been there since sec 4.. haha.. figured my gp was too cham already.. and i shld go there to improve it.. haha.. anyway.. gonna me taught by some ms lee or something.. i wondered wad happened to mrs r lim.. haha.. thought she was quite a good eng teacher .. hmm.. got nothing to do now.. trying to start studying my reading up on my transition metals notes.. haha.. gonna be a very guai kia dis yr.. haha.. so far.. doing ok la.. been doing my hw.. except for math holiday assign't.. dis is the 1st time i actually completed a whole bio tutorial.. hehe.. anyway.. so far i think anantha is ok la.. except for some sorta mood swings.. her lesson is far better than t-gohs.. but her lecture is O SO BORING.. haha.. tts compared to ms choong's.. think tts how u spell it... mrs leong is ok.. except when shes sorta deaf.. u can keep calling her and she nv hear lor... haha..
anyway.. i realised that so far.. all the subjects that i take have changed tutor at least once.. except for chinese.. haha.. o btw.. i haven been to chi tutorial so far.. fell pretty guilty about it.. so i dunno.. maybe i try out once.. c how it is.. i certainly hope i pass or at least get a d7 for my aos.. haha.. but i muz pray and pray.. hmm.. guess tts all for now.. actually i'm kinda getting sian of bloging recently.. no time lor..

2005-01-14T20:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm..ok.. sianed of my old format.. so kinda redoing.. knows not great.. but wad can u expect from someone wif no real comp skills.. haha..

2005-01-12T17:48:00.000+08:00

long time no post! haha... hmm.. nothing much happened lately though.. been rushing hw.. i think i'm gonna start working hard liao.. i need to.. haiz.. stupid a levels.. gonna turn my hair white.. anyways... this yr the j1s.. alot cmi lor.. sob sob.. haha..1st day of sch can hear all the guys saying.. all cmi sia... *sob sob*.. haha.. but y-day i saw this j1 ger playing volley ball quite tall wearing black zion t-shirt.. not bad leh.. haha.. its like the only 1 i c so far tt can make it.. haha.. o well.. anyway.. plan to concentrate on my studie dis yr.. so.. sob sob.. cannot think bout dis kinda stuff.. o well.. ciaoz for now.. gtg walk my dog..

2005-01-02T10:33:00.000+08:00

decided to change the song to eminem's like toy soldiers.. very nice song.. i only like eminem's song when its so angsty.. haha.. dunno y.. but i think he sounds better angry and serious than when he's insane and bitching bout pple.. haha.. o well.. enjoy...